3 Signs I Had Hit Bottom: ADDICT CONFESSION

Published 2023-02-10
Mental health, addiction, and recovery are stigmatized in the LGBTQ+ community, but shame keeps us sick and suffering. I want to share my journey towards sobriety, in the hopes that it can speak to others struggling with the cycle drug abuse and chaotic relationships.

Here's what my bottom looked like: HIV infection, near overdoses, and profound depression. A deep-seated meaninglessness and hopelessness. Before i found the daily reprieve of 12 Step programs (Alcoholics Anonymous and others!), regular therapy, and living a life of service.

All Comments (21)
  • This video will not get the views of the one about Berghain, but it’s much profound and eye opening. Came for Berghain, stayed for the deep content. Thanks for sharing
  • I've always felt interested about the life in Berlin as a regular on berghain and it's good to see all points of view of it. The fact that you had the courage to talk about this in front of a camera says a lot. Thank you, this also works as a prevention to going into a lot of stuff.
  • @johanhallgren
    I really like how truthful you are. We need more people like you telling us about the real deal. Thanks for sharing your story.
  • "With great power comes great responsibility" I believe this phrase is specially true about Berlin as this city is more or less like an adult playground. You can find any kind of pleasure(party, sex, drugs, kink) here on any day of the week. But at the end of the day its your responsibility to know what your limits are and respect your limits otherwise the nightlife in Berlin will suck you in and leave you dry. As someone currently living in Berlin and heavily involved in the clubbing/techno/drug culture, I relate to a lot the things you have mentioned in this video.
  • @gravveyards
    fantastic video. came for the berghain stories initially, but i think it’s also really important to show the flipside of the scene. your way of storytelling is fantastic and really reaches the heart, i wouldn’t be mad at longer format videos at all!! you’re so easy to listen to while doing chores and such, and i really appreciate your honesty and openness about such tough subjects. i can’t wait to see what you make next, whatever it may be :)
  • @IlllIlIlIlIlllI
    good luck in life, you seem like a good person the last part must have been very complicated hope you are strong now
  • @panchit0666
    thank you so much. you are very humble for sharing this harsh part of your story, it is a eye-opening message you are sharing. lots of love for you and everyone that helped you out 💌
  • @elektra81516
    You're so open about everything, it takes a lot for someone to be this open and posting about it on the internet. I'm so glad you've recovered and are doing well!
  • @idafito
    You’re so kind, so beauty and sooooooo handsome, thanks for sharing whit us all your experiences and live moods 🙏🏼 you’re so inspire ❤
  • Thanks for sharing man, positivity to you and good luck for what's up ahead 👊
  • @billtc3
    Thanks for sharing. You 're a really good talker. I've enjoyed all your videos on Berlin
  • @blue5teel
    Thank you! I could listen for days to you. I actually like the background music but it is a little bit to present. A 30 % decrease would be perfect I guess.
  • @BobbyGeneric145
    What is up with the light in your kitchen!? Btw love Joshua Tree. I buried my first guitar out there because it was damaged beyond repair and I couldn't bring myself to throw it in a dumpster. Semi-serious question... Have you ever seen any weird stuff out there, like shape shifting vampire cults with portals and stuff?
  • @nobodys2358
    I love your talking videos. About your experience of the club culture and everything adjacent to it. Would be interesting to know what helped you in overcoming the addiction — i mean in a bit more detail on the process. But I'd be happy to hear about any topic you might think of. Cheers. 🧡
  • Would you say most of the people you used to hang out with there had a similar drug related problem as yours?