Running from the past: Why I Quit YouTube For a Year +

Honestly, I assumed the worst from your silence. I’m glad you’re still alive. I just want to say, at least with regards to me, that I’ll still follow your channel and eagerly await your uploads even if you take an unannounced 14 year hiatus! I don’t want to say I’m looking forward to your content, considering the subject matter and amount of emotional strength it will require from you to open up, but I’m glad you are well enough to post again. P.S. Short hair looks good on you. I know it has deep psychological meaning and I appreciate that, but you are rocking it from a purely aesthetic standpoint.

I missed you so much East! I've been through my own isolation from the end of last year to a month ago because of major personal life changes and a mental health collapse. Everything kind of collapsed in my life at once and a lot of my friends and family didn't hear from me for months. It took me a long time before I talked about it with anyone. I'm happy to see you back and still healing. The work never really stops does it? 😅 I thought I had most of everything figured out but I realized how much I still have yet to heal from.

So glad to see you back!

So so proud of you. Can't wait to see this next chapter unfold for you <3 <3 <3

So glad to see you again. You have been an inspiration to many. We’re here for you. ❤

glad you are back, I had the worst year of my life, now on my new antidepressants I feel better, can't wait to see more vids from you.

I feel I at least somewhat understand (as much as one human can truly ‘understand’ the mind of another human) your rationale regarding a need to establish consistency for the channel, but on a purely human level, I just want you to know that I accept you for who you are in your totality, as much as an internet stranger can- your strengths, your perceived shortcomings, the tension which might exist between these peaks and valleys… you are deserving and inherently invaluable, no matter what happens. Of course, I too believe in your potential and hope that you are able to bring to fruition all that you envision (including what may exist for you beyond what you could possibly envision in this present moment), but I also just hope you know that even if those endeavors were all to “fail”, even if you never changed again from the person you are today… you are worthy, you were worthy, and you will always be worthy. You can never lose that, ever… your intrinsic, unconditional value as a wonderfully intricate, sentient being, full of life and the beautifully complex manifestations of its seemingly infinite facets.

We're here for you! Take your time and always do what feels right and best for your health. <3 I'm glad to see you and hear from you. I'll always support and respect your decisions, because I respect and admire you!

I am so glad that you are back. I know how difficult it is to face the past, your responses, and the apologies needed. Keep doing what you are doing it is much appreciated....Do It Afraid

So glad you're back and doing well! Congratulations on the diagnosis! while scary, it means correct treatment! And I know how life shattering BPD can be as I've seen it in the lives of friends and I've also seen how life changing treatment can be!! Excited to see what you'll do!

It’s great to see your face again 😊. I’m sorry you have been going through so much. Sending as much care and support to you as I can through a screen

Hey man, you are an inspiration. Good luck with everything. You have so much passion and honesty !

Great to see you back! ❤

You have a lot to offer. Keep growing!

Hope your doing good man its gonna be a great vid

Always great seeing you on here! I’m glad you’re in a better space and wish you all the best moving forward. Love the new setup, btw.

I feel at some point Chris and East might meet again. A merge and synthesis of both, becoming something new. Your truest real self. My appreciation for your courage, strength and vulnerability. I know what it takes to show oneself this naked. Denisa, Romania

I'm glad you are alive and as well as you can be. You are a very articulate person, although you mentioned a wide variety of issues and feelings without going into in depth specifics, your sincerity, hope, and sadness all seemed to come together at the same time. Although I haven't experienced the vast majority of things you mentioned, I found myself getting surprisingly emotional listening to you. I suppose part of it's empathy, but I think it's more than that. You're saying things that all deep thinkers dabble with. The complexity of life. We're all a mix of light and dark, capable of great kindness and terrible cruelty. Are we bad but want to be good? I can't really pinpoint it. But it was moving. I'll check out your other videos. All you can do is try to be the best you you can, and that will always be enough!!! 🙏

Oh, I’ve missed you so much Christopher! 💜 Elated you’re back & that you’ve found clarity. Good on you for deciding to give it another shot. You are meant to do this. We haven’t gone anywhere and don’t plan on it and I’m just so grateful that you were taking that time to do the hard work.

Glad to see you again!