The Uglier Side of Mental Illness - my experience with schizophrenia and things we don't talk about

with less finances we lose out on alot of hobbies as well, since those cost money, art supplies, photography, games, music . even be social going out with friends can cost money and we might not always be able to

Thank you for being so vulnerable. We need more people like you

I have 24/7 support workers, so I am continuously prompted to do things, and most of the time I don't want to do ANYTHING! The fact that you cope on your own speaks volumes. You are an inspiration to me.

My son has this illness. He is very thin. He doesn’t get any service support. I worry about him. He is a child in an adult’s body. Don’t feel so bad. Lots of people have a cleaner, a dishwasher, a large dryer, and a 10 kg washer. All these enable people to work more. Where I live, we have rubbish bins at our back door so it’s easy and quick. Menial tasks can be obstacles to increased productivity and creativity. Don’t beat yourself up. Find work you are passionate about and delegate menial tasks.

Thank you for your bravery. Unless someone has had up close experience of mental illness, do not judge other people. You have no idea of the daily struggle for survival of those who live with serious mental illness.

There's no shame in taking out trash bags! Just like I say there's no shame in clean clothes when I just leave them in the basket for weeks. You're not a burden or any kind of unpleasant at all! My first time watching your channel, I adore your kind voice! Subscribed.

I truly appreciate your honesty no judgment here. I completely understand.

Sweetie you are not gross at all. You are lovely at any size.❤️❤️❤️

I have a brother with schizophrenia and bipolar polar. This lack of self care is one of his symptoms that I, as well as his caregiver, struggle with a lot. Thank you for sharing.

I am schizophrenic and bipolar . I have found that I am good and clean showering every three days . Showering is such a challenge that showering day that is all I do , that is all that I expect from myself . Doing dishes is next to impossible . I have to use paper plates and plastic utensils . I never cook . I have my own washer and dryer and I actually enjoy doing laundry . I like hearing the machines work - working is so hard for me.... All this being said , I have really adjusted to my mental illness negative symptoms and executive dysfunction . I am a happy person .

So awesome to hear someone be honest about living with mental illness. Yes! Yes! To all these things! I struggle to shower and change my clothes often. My partner does the laundry so I could change more often but I don't want to make more work for him. Plus it's just plain hard to do. To hear someone on YouTube admit they struggle too, is just amazing. Thank you Kimberly. I have also found it difficult to maintain friendships. My partner and I don't mix with others much. But at least we have each other. Our relationship is anything but normal however. But we do laugh together and I think it's this that keeps us afloat. I wish for you more friendships and especially those which are genuine. You deserve it.

Thank god, I'm not alone on this struggle. I have been having the worst time taking out my trash, cleaning my house, everything, literally everything and I have been having the hardest time telling my Dr & Therapist what struggles i'm having and somehow this video completely encapsulates that... They keep asking what I think are "stupid questions", like how are you doing, not direct questions! Like when was the last time you took a bath, are you taking out your trash, do you have more then one set of dishes clean, did you forget to take your medicine any since the last time we met, how long does it take for you to leave your house and get ready each day on average, how many hours a day average would you say you feel almost completely lost and pace around the house/room for literally no reason whatsoever talking to yourself... These questions to me, indicate the cognitive deficits associated with this illness sooo much more than the questions they have been asking me. I cannot be the only one that struggles answering , and it's super disappointing to see other people with this illness present so easily the symptoms i'm dealing with yet they fail completely to pick up on that.

You are so smart, brave, caring. Thanks for sharing.

Thank you for being so honest it's hard for people who have never experienced severe depression to understand how debilitating it can be. You are not gross you are very human, doing the best you can and doing it very openly sharing with others who are going through the same thing. We need to normalise the less savoury side of depression and not feel shame or embarrassment for being human. Love your blog! 💙💙

Thank you for being so bold and sharing your experience! I believe I have CPTSD, chronic depression, anxiety, and possibly Avoidant Personality Disorder (none diagnosed, because I’ve never been to therapy yet). I experience most of these struggles too. I’ve lost a tooth because it was too damaged by my hygiene neglect and bad diet. Many of my teeth are de-calcified and discolored. I feel self conscious about it sometimes. It’s an outward signal of how depleted I have been inside. I’ve lost most of my friends because of my self isolation. One step at a time. I’ll probably always struggle with caring for myself and with maintaining relationships, and that’s ok. We need more time and support than typical people, and anyone who shames us for that is ignorant and irrelevant. Even most typical people really need more support than they are given.

Hi from Russia! Its not your fault! In fact just by living with that illness you already doing more than all other people! All that doesn't make you ugly and you are very brave for being so vulnerable

You described my son to a "T". He is improving some, but still has a ways to go. He has a representive payee, which helps a lot. Thanks for being truthful and willing to tell it like it is. Blessings on you.. .I love your channel.

I too struggle with all this when Ill. I sleep in my day clothes then carry on the next day for weeks. I also suffer with agoraphobia when Ill as the outside world is scary and overwhelming. I have started on new medication and it's like night and day, or maybe it's because my symptoms vary through the season. God I love spring! By the way you look lovely in your video and you have a bunch of new friends here.

Thank you for your bravery. I was recently diagnosed wirh bipolar one with psychotic features and i was in a period of dark loneliness until i found resources like you. You are a lifesaver. ❤

I appreciate your honesty cause I wouldn’t be able to talk about my most vulnerable times with anyone Especially seeing how cold and mean the world can be and I think it’s impressive that you improve despite those hardships It’s hard for people who are not in a similar situation to relate or even understand so I just wanted to let you know that as long as we do our best we can really pat ourselves on the back